cheater

 Hey, it has been a long itme since I haven't posted what my story is

here we go again,
I still got cheated on
I still got blamed on
I still get blamed for being reactive, quite, good, bad, everything doesnt matter as long as he is staying with me he would always feel want to break up

I dont have any dignity in my self, like I am terrible I dont know what to do 
I wanna quit this cycle, I wanna break this toxic cycle. I always lose myself, try to understand him while he can treat his sidechicks better thanme.
I am ashamed. I know I dont deserve to be treated lke this
even my worst enemies.

so far, the has been cheating on me with 5-6 girls I found out. Naked pictures, stay in the hotel together, spoke to them like he did speak to me, just except I always beg him