I am feeling anxious right now since I got my period. I could not sleep, my stomach hurts. Lately, I can't sleep well. I don't know why but this makes my body hurt. Last night, I was talking to Juwita, my bestfriend forever. It was nice seeing her in her motherhood era with supportive husband. I sometimes realize it is so hard to be a mom. I mean not sometimes. It is always tough. I really appreciate for all the moms out there. Even, they need to work to pay the bills. That is scary. I feel bad too because her husband needs to work over time from morning to night time. But, it is the thing that need to be done since you have family. She wonders how her life would be if she is not married yet. I was asking her is there any man who wants to get married maybe I can lol. I am the clingy one is searching for emotional supportive husband that I need the most. I know I am anxious person and I know if I am with avoidant I will be mad. I will not be happy.
Today, I am not feeling happy nor sad. But I am grateful to Allah because I can give my parents cheap gift. I hope in the future I can give more them money and gift so I will be able to spoil them. I call them a lot in Indonesia. When I was in Taiwan, I rarely called them and I relied on my boyfriend a lot. I did not tell anything about my school or my life. I don't know that is why I feel alone in Taiwan.
I received shopee packet today, I bought hijab black and grey. They are so beautiful and long. I will make sure I wear it maybe two weeks from now. I have been waiting for long time. Further, I bought mini lego but I don't know how to build them:(
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