Day 85- What is the meaning of life?

 I am crying right now. I dont know I feel so lonely. I got no one helps my future. I am really scared of doing nothing. I know I should be grateful for what I have but I just feel I am so lonely. I have not done anything for my whole life. I am almost 26 years old next year which technically is 26 years since it is almost 2025. 5 months to go to 2025 and I feel doing nothing. Especially my love story is really suck. I have a boyfriend but seems he doesn't want to marry me. He still has not seen me as his future. I am desperate. I want to quick but the thing is I am afraid to lose him. I really am afraid. I am gonna be lonel and single and it is hard to find a partner. I wanna have a family and I am getting older. I always ask to Allah but it seems now I still dont have anyone come to me