Day 104 and 105

 I was crying when i woke up

I need to read the book about letting go again

The book is reminder

That i am gonna be okay

I dont need to be in rush

I just know i need to let go

Let go everything i have done

To make sure i will give my love to me

To make sure i become priorty

Myself is my first primary one

I hurt

I am in pain

But the pain is mine

I will take care of it

I will be gentle to myself

That is okay to feel pain

The at is okay to take long time

I might now think oh my god if years without him

How my life would be?

Can i find another one

I promise this to myself

I write everything i have been through

So i can look back i am strong

I am able to be alone

I am able to feel and nurture myself of what i need

I become more aware what i need 

I know the pain is mine. The pain belongs to me and i have to be with it every single day. I dont need to be saved because i am safe. I am safe with the pain