I lost count how long it has been already. I dont wanna count because it hurts. It hurts nobody says it doesnt. But i just miss him missing him calling me texting me. Wish i could make it last wish i could act better wish i could change to be what he wants wish i could fight harder wish i could not emotional.
Today i feel sad but i manage to talk to new person today. I laugh to cover my pain. I got out of jo where sadness but i dont link to my relationship. You know what it is getting better? I dont even want to call him or text him
My pain is my pain. It is my responsibility. I want to embrace and grow it. Be friend with the new reality where loniless will come over and aover
I checked his account but no instgaram. I checked his reddit and snapchat. I feel he is dead. I feel i have to sit with the pain and make time with my beautiful pain.
It makes me human. Pain makes me realize i do love people. I do love and i do care and im so strong
Most people are afraid to show love
But me im proud to have love
Im proud to fight even at the end it is not good
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