Everyone has ever experienced failure at least once. Failure brings us closer where our dream can be achieved. Failure brings us to the realization that it is okay to get up after you fall. It doesn't matter how long you will get up as long as you always get up you will be fine. However, what if I don't get up? Let's we take a look where we first time learned how to walk. We keep falling to the ground, sometimes we cry until we ignore that fall is okay. It takes time to realize that falling is painful but it is worth to get up at the end. It takes time to get used to the failure that we experience almost every single day. It is normal in life. If you feel you can't get up, ask for someone to help you. But I am afraid no one cares. Sweety, you are worth of love and kindness. You have those people who love you so much when you are down. If you feel alone, remember everytime you have failed in your life, you can get up. It shows how much dedication, endurability, persistency, and strength you have. We sometimes take it for granted but trust me I know how strong you are.
I will talk about failure in my life. The biggest failure in my life is fail to love myself and fail to take care of myself when I was younger. Why? When I was a teenager, all I think is about beauty, face, and body. I was insecure about how my face look when everything was just fine. When I see to my old pictures, I realize where the ugliness. I was cute and am cute, I was smart and am smart, I was as beautiful as I compliment other people. I can't be compared to anyone because I am me. Only one in this world. I was just depressed and cried over time since I had acnes problem. Everyone was focusing on my face. But I did not anything to fix that until one of my friends recommended a doctor. I was struggling because I could not afford the cost cause it was expensive. I did not have job and only relied on my saving. That was the change when I got into 1st year of college. Until now, it leaves the scar of how I treated my self poorly. Now, I begin to take care of my body and don't want to deny what my needs are. I was thirsty to seek validation that I am worth of love and to be loved by man. I keep looking for people who I can talk online. It doesn't help me at all, it drains me to where I have to sacrifice my boundaries. I failed to love my self to where I had to ask people to talk to me, to be friends with me, to hangout with me because I am not comfortable with my own body. I forget how I spend my time back then, like what I did.
Now, I am a 25-yearl-old woman who is mature according to the age but I still needs a lot of time to learn. I am still trying to love myself so I only can rely on myself and my God. I don't want to be desperate because no one give me love or attention. It is nice to have someone who takes care and loves for you but I don't want to put in my list as my goal. I am looking for myself first. It sounds selfish but I need to be aware of myself and did not neglect myself.
Failure about everything else? yes, I have but I don't think it affects that much as I fail to love myself. I just think other failure is meant to be fail so I can get another path and chance. However, if I fail to love myself it will influence the rest of my life, how I view my life, how I talk to myself, and everything in my life because I am the one who is gonna get through within my self, right?
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