Reflective Journal Part Nine


THIS PAIN IN MY HEART
Hello again, this is the time where I started writing. After discovering evidence with interviewing my mother and also my father, I finally will be visualised his adventure in life. I have given some steps in my writing blog before. In addition, the screen off will be underwritten with aesthetic dimensional. Lol! My language is too high.
I began to start writing on June, 24th. My target was to finish this book 1 week, in writing, I also imagine myself as if I am the character and feel the grand adventure of his life. The spectrum should be raised up so the reader can picture overall. By the time I decide to start writing an autobiography, I am probably have in mind the intended message I would like to pass and most definitely, the characters for my story. A story is built by the characters; they can either make the novel interesting or water down your message. Always use characters who can relate to the experience of others. Say, I could touch on how they start their first education. As much as my characters need to be interesting, they should also resonate with the experiences of our readers.
It is easier to use photo. I used them to rejuvenate my memory. Day by day, the majority of my story progresses that I feel was given me more powerful and I felt so much confidence in writing so it fully. In the fifth day, chapter 2 has been finished and I continued writing in the night. At that time, I was so sleepy but I’m afraid that my appearing moments in brain will change. So, I don’t quite doing it. I keep continuing even though I felt exhausted. It was 02.00 am but I was still typing. Awesome, I have finished all of story. At least I added 10 pages to complete chapter III and IV. I was so expressive at that time. In my mind, I just thought about bed, bed, and bed.
Suddenly, my laptop was turning down and you know the worst part was the file hasn’t saved yettt!!! Excuse me, is this real? Oh my God. My effort; everything is gone. It was terrible problem I ever had . You can only imagine after I have finished thirty pages and suddenly it completely took away from me not all thirty pages but 10 pages I have bravery written at this point. Sometimes in life you need sensational moment when everything seems good but not at all! It is so much pain in my heart. This made me both a physiological and physical pain. My goal to finish earlier really drove me crazy.


Why happened to me? I just wanted to sleep earlier, Why ? I was honestly crying and trying to fix it up. I was searching on youtube how to recover the lost file. Once again, it did not work so well.  Unfortunately, I could not celebrate my winning after war. It’s like more painful than anything else. Can you feel it? Well, I was in blue.  
That’s a shame but I decided to continue my work until 05.00 a.m. My condition? Did you ask my brain or my hand, or my body? But pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day but eventually it will subside and something else will take its plae. If I quite, however, it lasts forever.
Enough for this pain, bye !


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