Day 101

 I forget to write blog yesterday. I was too sad to even write. Today i dont feel really sad. Im still sad. I dont know sometimes it is killing me. I told myaelf he doesnt want to be with me. He rejected me and it is okay to not be someones want. It does not mean i have something. Maybe i already accept the fact that i cant do anything anymore. Im praying to god to give me clear mind. I didnt even feel i wqa breaking up. I just feel it is something that normal. I was going shopping and treat myself. I honestly miss him. I miss the idea of him and being in relationship. I miss him but i dont miss when he always say im obsessive, i miss him when he says mean things about me, i miss him but i dont miss when he can go put with me, i miss him but i dont miss when i cry and he doesnt care, i miss him but i dont miss him when he was cheating on me